tired

have you ever felt so tired that you just want to shut your moment for a while? I'm not tired being a mom, but as a worker.. really sometimes it's really devastating working here with that kind of company, system, and bosses.. really I just felt so tired.. I cannot understand their expectation while they didn't give something to be done.. really I just sit here everyday doing almost nothing and boom they expect me to explain something I never heard of.. really?? you never updated me about the progress and you expected me to explain it to others? really??? what's your purpose? sometimes it feels like you just want to put the shame on me and makes you look great in front of other.. so I'm just paid to be an asshole here? to be the clown whom being made fun of?

it's not that you're that great.. but you want to look down on someone that sadly it's me.. I don't understand your thinking.. how could you feel happy to bully on someone for years? if you're THAT good, there's no need to put shame on others right? do you see clearly that you're not THAT good if you have to put shame on people to make you looks good?

we'll see if someday karma catch you and make you feel sorry.. I hope it won't be too painful and I hope it kicks on your own butt, not your children.. because really karma DOES exist!