Happy New Year 2018!!

yeayyy.. second new year celebrated as mom.. hehehe.. it means two times worrying if the fireworks would wake my baby up and thankfully a second NOPE!! praying hard J would sleep before 10 pm so he would be in deep sleep mode when the clock hit 00.00 and yes it's done.. praise the Lord!

lately he was such a mama's boy and when I was home for 10 days year-end-holiday, he was really possessive about me.. he demanded to hold my hand whenever he walked.. refused others' hands including his babysitter.. even when I wanted to go to the bathroom for a pee or poop, he would scream loudly and sometimes he even threw a tantrum (crying so hard that neighbour would think I had slapped him hard LOL~).. really he's going into the drama era of his age.. he always said "mama tenteng" means he wants me to hold his hand.. he also love to say "mama nenen" or "mama bobo yuk.. nenen.." and he even escorted me to the bedroom.. what a cute boy he is! 

sometimes I felt so tired that I wanted him to get away a lil bit from me but he refused.. sometimes he accepted and go play with his nanny.. but mostly not.. yet I always warn myself that this too shall pass and I'm the one who lost it then.. so I tried (hard!) to calm down and be patience (God knows I'm not a patience girl!!).. I'm his mother and I'm his world for now.. as he's getting older, I know he wouldn't need me or want me that much.. so I will enjoy this killing-my-back-and-shoulder era as much as I can.. 

little J, mama will always love you and always be there for you.. whenever you want to be spoiled or just want to be heard or want an accompany, tell mama and I'll be there.. 

J would hit 18 months in days.. yet he surprisingly becomes a more-nenen addicted than before.. my friends who have child in his age also said the same.. well let's hope and pray it won't be too much drama when it comes to weaning time.. and as he nenen more than before, he also experienced the GTM era.. he even caught fever (37.4 C) on Sunday.. I felt that his gum a little bit swollen so I think it's another teething.. he already had so many teeth and even some of molars.. let's hope this GTM won't affect his development too much and he'll be on track for the weight and height.. next week we'll visit the paediatrician for regular vaccine injection.. so fingers-crossed until then!

another milestones:
- start to run and more stable
- start to love going outside and refuse to go home
- talk a lot (like A LOT!)
- more and more words that mama stop counting LOL~
- start to love to spoonfeed himself
- tell mama/ncus if he wants (or already done) pee or poo (SO PROUD OF THIS!)
- knows and remember people, names, things, etc
- loves the number 2.. anyone asked him "berapa?" and he always answer "DUA!"
- loves to count "tu wa tu wa"
- loves UPIN-IPIN, teletubbies.. his fave character was meimei..
- already remember his ieie and able to ask to call/videocall her

anak mama

belakangan ini J makin manjaaaa banget sama mamanya.. tiap mamanya pulang, langsung pura2 nangis dgn muka super lucu (sayang gak pernah sempet foto/rekam) mata merem2 gigi monyong2, minta digendong sama mamanya.. padahal biasanya anteng tuh nunggu mamanya beres mam & mandi.. ini kadang mamanya makan harus sambil mangku si J dan kadang kena palak jg makanannya.. hahaha.. pagi pun kudu banget masuk dulu k mobil duduk2 dulu.. bahkan kemaren sempet dipasangin seatbelt, dy malah berdoa.. hahaha.. bisa banget ngikutin orang gede dehhh.. 

bersyukurrrr banget liat perkembangan J yg tetibaan kaya cepet bgt gitu loh.. bersyukur dy tumbuh sempurna dan normal.. bersyukur masih bisa setiap hari melihat perkembangan dy walaupun kerja tapi anak tetep nempel banget.. bersyukur masih bisa mengASIhi dy sampai 16.5 bulan ini.. bersyukur J skarang makannya lumayan deh gak sampe kaya dulu.. bener2 semua gw syukuri banget dengan adanya J.. 

masih berusaha juga menjadi ibu yg lebih baik buat J dan tentunya istri yg lebih baik buat papanya J.. semoga bisa menjadi contoh yg lebih baik untuk J sehingga J bisa tumbuh menjadi pribadi yg terbaik.. 

oh iya sekarang lagi muncul milk blister lagi.. sakit bgt.. uda diapa2in blom berhasil pecah jg.. tapi buat nenenin sih uda ga terlalu sakit.. semoga cepet ilang deh ini.. uda 16 bln masi aja ada problem mengASIhi nya yaa..

tired

have you ever felt so tired that you just want to shut your moment for a while? I'm not tired being a mom, but as a worker.. really sometimes it's really devastating working here with that kind of company, system, and bosses.. really I just felt so tired.. I cannot understand their expectation while they didn't give something to be done.. really I just sit here everyday doing almost nothing and boom they expect me to explain something I never heard of.. really?? you never updated me about the progress and you expected me to explain it to others? really??? what's your purpose? sometimes it feels like you just want to put the shame on me and makes you look great in front of other.. so I'm just paid to be an asshole here? to be the clown whom being made fun of?

it's not that you're that great.. but you want to look down on someone that sadly it's me.. I don't understand your thinking.. how could you feel happy to bully on someone for years? if you're THAT good, there's no need to put shame on others right? do you see clearly that you're not THAT good if you have to put shame on people to make you looks good?

we'll see if someday karma catch you and make you feel sorry.. I hope it won't be too painful and I hope it kicks on your own butt, not your children.. because really karma DOES exist!

16 days to go

Wooowww..two more weeks to go..printilan masi byk yg belom confirm such as cleaning service dan sewa AC..tinggal konfirm trus DP c tapiiii kok dr mereka lama yes?dagdigdug juga kan jadinya..hahaha..

Eniwei dua hari lalu sempet ada tragedi berdarah (lebaaayyy)..jadi penerima tamu gw kan ada dua..satu temen kantor gw ud konfirm..satu lagi pacar adiknya si ncen, let's call her A..nah si ncen ngmgnya ke adiknya aja buat minta tolong A dan jawabannya OK..si A ini kerja d mall jadi sabtu-minggu masuk kan..tapi katanya uda OK dapat ijin..seminggu sebelom lebaran kan kita ktmu gt d rmh ncen, gw basa basi donk blg tolong ya nanti bla3 dan dy tnyata ga tau donk acaranya siang!!! Jadi dia ijin pulamg cepet jam 3 sore krn dy pikir acaranya malam..oke ini sih bukan salah dy yaaa..murni salahnya si ncen&ddnya yg ga kasi info jelas..eniwei katanya mo diusahain..sminggu ga ada kabar, gw push si ncen buat mastiin ke adeknya..end up weekend kmaren adeknya bbm kalo si A ga bs mastiin ampe hari H..guuubbbrraaakk..

Empet bgt donk gw!!uda kurleb tiga minggu tiba2 kok bgituuuu..zzz bgt dehhh..gw whatsapp ponakan gw, dy blg dy ga ada yg anter takut telat..akhirnya si ncen whatsapp sepupunya..dari pagi ga ada kabar..jam 10 malem dy akhirnya telp k ieienya aka mama tu spupu dan tnyata si spupu ganti no.hp aja donkkkk..bagusnya tu spupu lgs OK tanpa banyak rempong..baju & dandan dy mau urus sendiri gpp..duhhh tau gt dr awal aja kaaan..ampe si ncen komen "emank enakan ama sodara sendiri yaa" hmm ya engga jg sih buktinya adek lo kaya begonooo hahaha..semoga lancar2 deh ini urusan sampe hari H..

Sekarang masi progress kirim2 undangan..kmaren TIKInya masi tutup..hari ini belom coba lagi ksana..trus baju2 smua udah dilaundry..baju ganti buat gw jg uda dapet, akhirnya beli dress batik aja..mau beli gaun cheongsam kok susa bener ga ada yg cocok..huhuhu..

Besok sabtu anter undangan ke mangdu, hari minggunya final fitting ama bridesmaid gw..gw uda turun lagiiii..senanknyaaa..smoga bs turun lagi hahaha..

Keep praying that all things will go smooth at the end and our wedding day will be beautiful as we wish..amen..

Clock is ticking

Hi!! It's less than a month to our big day..I become more and more stressful..feels like the work is never done..those little things keep coming up like never ending story.

It turns out that holding a home party is not as easy as I thought..tent, cooling fan, catering flow, cleaning service, parking..hufff..and the process is not as smooth as I thought..

Renting tent is one difficult things since we only need 24sqm while their minimum was between 50-100 sqm..well at least I already solved that..

For cleaning service, it's ncen's job and I don't know whether he already closed the deal with the candidate..let's consider it's done..

My family's attire are finished..we just need to dry clean my mom&sis' gowns along with ncen's suit and my bedcover..we also need to clean up the house esp my future bedroom but on this second day of Ied holiday, I fell sick..

Minor things keep coming, let's hope I can keep my sanity during these few days before D-day!

Feel so long

Hari ini temen SD gw merit..gw gak diundang c..tapi it makes me feel like "hey is it still 1 month left??so long eh!"

I feel that everything has been prepared..only few minor things need to be confirmed..then I just have to wait for my big day to come..feel too long..huhuhu..

Pingin cepet2 tanggal 8 agustus..pingin cepet2 kelar nikahan trus cuss liburan..pingin cepet2 memulai hidup baru sama ncen..

Kayanya kmaren tu pusing banget ngurusin printilan..skarang uda mule slowdown..uda mule malessss..pingin cepetan kelar aja smua hehehe..skarang ini itu cuman tinggal memastikan dan follow up aja..

Harus sabar harus sabaaarrr

Husband

My definition of "husband" is your forever friend given by God chosen by us who will always be there for you no matter what..